[Yes, he is some kind of a saint to a man who guns down cops and has a problem with the big guy in the sky. And it isn't because he's a cop, it's because he's a fucking good kid, good as gold.

Damn it all though, Newendyke is a man, not a kid or a saint.]

A little messed up? [Let's hold onto that rather than the fear detail.] You wanna know what I went through? I was scared to get up to take a piss after I was told to go to bed. Any disobedience would get me into a onesided brawl. If I cried out loud it wold start all over again. Real men don't cry.