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[orangetoughguy]

"Motherfucker, I'm trying to watch The Lost Boys."

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[orangetoughguy]

[WHEW. LOOK AT THE RELIEF.]

Great.

[punchedhitler]

I'm...sorry for the uncharitable thoughts I had.

[THEY WERE REALLY UNCHARITABLE.]

[orangetoughguy]

Uncharitable?

[He knows what the word means but now he's kind of curious because he's never seen Steve get that emotional about this sort of thing. HE'S SUCH A PRIVATE PERSON WHEN IT COMES TO THIS STUFF.]

[punchedhitler]

[He's blushing]

I'm not proud of it, Freddy.

[orangetoughguy]

I'm not....like that, you know.

[A homewrecker despite a penchant for the occasional threeway and orgy.]

[punchedhitler]

[He takes a moment, a breath. He still thinks Bucky will leave him, any day of the week. Why not with someone like Freddy? A cop, smart, lets him swear and smoke, doesn't care about his lip or attitude.]

I owe you an apology.

[orangetoughguy]

Yeah, me too. I mean I owe you an apology...it wasn't supposed to go to you...

[Wait a second, he waves his hands again.]

Not that I'd hide it from you if it was him you know I wouldn't do that no way.

[punchedhitler]

[A nod, because now he feels like crap]

I mean it. I should have known better.

If you ever need anything, all right?

[orangetoughguy]

Alright.....

[Weird. No he's not gonna leave yet!] Is everything alright with you and him...?

[punchedhitler]

I think...I owe him an apology, too.

[He takes a deep breath. He hasn't been mean but he knows he's been distant.]

[orangetoughguy]

Hey it's natural, feeling the way you did...it's one thing to hear about it it's another when you've got pictures.

[He shrugs once and those freckled hands go right into his pockets.]

Even around here, you just don't get a hundred percent used to that stuff, the same faces. That shit.

[punchedhitler]

I've never met anyone who has his face who wasn't...you know.

Bucky.

[Once he met future angry Bucky]

[orangetoughguy]

I seen a guy like Mr. White running around...a little shorter, with a mustache. Called himself Wolf or something. It happens.

[HE'S GONNA SMOKE STEEB.]

Does he talk a lot? I mean jokes or you know.... [How to explain staying in the closet to Steve Rogers.]

[punchedhitler]

He wants...it's not really a secret anymore. I mean people don't know, but he really wants...us to be open about it.

[Gosh this is hard.]

[orangetoughguy]

Buuuut....you're not ready for that?

[Puff puff. Boy can the kid relate.]

[punchedhitler]

Where I'm from, it's illegal.

[He huffs]

I know it's not anymore, but it's hard to stop thinking of it that way.

[orangetoughguy]

How come he doesn't think of it that way?

[Who infected Bucky Barnes with that modern sense of who gives a damn?]

[punchedhitler]

Amy.

[He rubs the back of his head]

Bucky's always been faster at getting things than me. Looking to the future.

[orangetoughguy]

Who's Amy?

[Gotta brush up on all these people in the City who have a presence on the network even though even Freddy thinks you just can't spend all your time on it (unless it's for porn).]

[punchedhitler]

She was his friend. His best one here, outside of me.

She's gone, though. She thought we didn't have to hide.

[Freddy the network isn't just trying to catch Eames masturbating, get a life]

[orangetoughguy]

[Oh Steeb that's not porn that's comedy.]

Yeah well she's not you and I'll bet she doesn't know where you come from. Do you think you could go back to having things the way they were if you went home?

[punchedhitler]

I go back home and nothing's the same.

Bucky's not there.

[orangetoughguy]

I guess that's not sinking in for him huh?

[D'oh that's right the guy's still in the ice 8(]

[punchedhitler]

I'm not ashamed of him.

He's the best thing I have.

[orangetoughguy]

It's not about being ashamed of what you've got.

[So Freddy tells himself.]

It's not always about shame. Sometimes you can't fix the bullshit you've got flying around you and you've got more than one battle on your plate. You end up picking only one fight cause if you take'em all you end up no good to anybody.