orangetoughguy | log post II

[Elbows on the table Freddy has to lean forward because this conversation has to stay between themselves, but also because he wants to get a look at those brown eyes. Larry's so fucking young he's practically young enough to be the son of the Lawrence Dimick Freddy knows best.]

A bus ticket to where?

I dunno. Away. I mean, this is pretty cool. [He's speaking softly, politely and not exactly looking Freddy in the face kind of half way at his chin.] You been real, real nice to me. I can't stay here like this. [Doesn't feel right however kind he's been. The other shoe is gonna drop and he doesn't want to stick around that long.] ...Maybe I'd skip town to Los Angeles or Detroit, I hear they got work in Detroit but...gets pretty cold there.

Detroit or LA? [He gestures the former with one hand and the latter with the other. Two very different cities, is the implication, but more than that, Freddy just has to ask.]

Are you gonna stay in one place?

[Compliments are compliments, he doesn't refute the remarks on his kindness. Freddy's just more interested in what Larry's up to. Learning about Larry at this point in his young life.]

Only if I find a place nice enough to stay. I been movin' around a lot since I was eight. I don't think I'm supposed to stay in Milwaukee. Or here. [Still no clear answer on where here is.]

I kinda want to see the world too. The nice parts.

I gotta hear this.

[Their food's long gone and his cigarette's out and they've got sodas dwindling down to the bottom of the cup but Freddy doesn't look like he's ready to leave Larry's side at all.]

Where are the nice parts?

Hawaii, New York, Georgia... I heard parts of LA are nice, I think I'd visit if I could.

[Brown eyes lift to look into Freddy's face as though he's looking for something. Sure he's not going anywhere. It makes him feel good and nervous all at once. He swallows.]

I'll figure somethin'.

Hawaii huh? You can work on getting a nice even tan there.

[Almost he thinks about referring to the fact that the Larry he knows seems to have no tan lines at all. One wonders how he ever achieved that aesthetically pleasing effect. Other than sunbathing naked of course.]

Or surf, that's what I'd do there. I mean that's what I'd try to do there.

Oh yeah, huh? I was thinking it's pretty, something like the movies. Blue Hawaii.

[For a moment he feels like Freddy is looking right through him. He likes to lay out in the sun on warmer summer days. Maybe he does know him after all.]

I never been surfing before.

The Elvis movie right? Rock a hula baby. [Shit Newendyke you weren't even born. He shakes his head.] I'm bad at it.

There aren't two. [Not a second that matters. Larry paws his pockets for cigarettes.]

Anyone who isn't The King are bad at it. Don't beat yourself up over it. The man invented it. He's laughing all the way to the bank.

[Slightly cynical but there's boyish adoration in his face.]

....... [Now Freddy, don't argue the kid about special effects and all that jazz. Just....let it go. He gives a shrug.] What can I say? I never lived by the beach either anyway.

[But there it is, a smile for a smile. Before Freddy can even think twice the words are already coming out.] What's your family like?

Then we'll have time to train before the contest. [Joking of course though it does feel good that he's not the only boy in the world who's never seen an ocean.]

...My family? [The carefree nature and natural flow of the conversation is gone. Larry's face falls and he realizes that there aren't any cigarettes in his pockets. He didn't take them from that nice apartment. They're not his.] I don't have much of my real family left. [Larry stalls and clears his throat. Freddy must not know him at all if he's askin'...] My mom is dead. My Pop is gone, I dunno where. Maybe dead too. My uncle is doing time.

[We? That certainly has this kid brightening up. Even as a young man Lawrence Dimick is charming. Does anyone ever call him Dimmy?]

I meant the people you're staying with, right now, or whoever made you feel like home. [Good job, Newendyke. He feels like rubbing a hand over his own face for that obvious faux pas. Instead Freddy tries to make up for it by taking out his own cigarettes. Did Larry every notice he keeps a couple Chesterfields tucked into his carton of Marlboros? It's for practical and sentimental reasons. Like right now it fits both. He offers the Chesterfield to Larry.]

[With a name like Dimick, you can bet your life on there being a handful of people who call him Dimick.]

I don't feel like I'm at home there. The Kleins put up with me. They don't gimme money because they said I'll buy smokes or drugs or...whatever and waste it.

[See though, it's half true because he's a smoker at seventeen. He takes that cigarette. ...Wasn't Freddy smoking Marlboros? Weird. He lights up before continuing.]

So I don't eat lunch. I wear somebody else's hand me downs. It's not so bad. I mean, there are worse places to be.

Like Fresno-way. [He emphasizes the waaay with the use of flappy hands too. Here have a light on Freddy, he's lighting up second cigarettes for them both.] That's where I'm from, my family's not so bad but I don't think they really take me seriously.

[Personal stories for personal stories. That's fair isn't it?]

I never heard of Fresno. That a bad place or something?

[Puff, puff.]

What do they do to you?

[It's an incriminating question, one that he is used to asking other fosters or kids who he know that have had their share of tears.]

...... [Sigh.] Naw, just that small, for California anyway.

[What do they do to him? Freddy has to look at Larry for this question. Is that normal for this kid? Shit, his brow furrows. Makes one really appreciate the folks they do have.] Nothing, they don't do anything to me. Just a couple disappointments, when I dropped out of college my mom and dad really rode my ass about it. Like I let everyone down. They're not happy I'm still a bachelor too.

[Freddy smiles over this one because it is kind of funny, the unwed youngest son.]

Most of it is great right? All sunny and warm. Even without the beach.

[So he assumes.]

Woah, though you went to college. They gotta be happy you went to some of it. [Says the kid who's having a hell of a time trying to get through high school. Larry taps ash off to one side.]

Girls aren't easy. Sounds like they expect too much.

Sure if you're by the coast. Fresno's about five hours from the nearest beach and that's if you've got a car to take on the highway.

[He should show Larry his motorcycle. There's something oddly satisfying about impressing this teenager. Back to the college thing though.] Nobody gets far saying you did only two years in college, worse if you quit. [Enough of that though.] You're tellin' me, don't get me started on California girls. All those songs got it way fuckin' wrong.

[The kid's smiling again.] What about you? Got any girlfriend?

[Because Freddy knows the routine real well at that age. You can fancy sucking cock but the way things are dictates you still keep a lady on one arm. That's just how it is.]

I never thought about how long it would take from my place to the beach. Five hours...[He whistles briefly at the thought.] That'd be best as a day trip.

[The motorcycle would undoubtedly make the kid flip. The very best he can hope for as far as wheels go will be a used clunker. Hard time getting the ladies in that.] Worse? Heck, I dunno if I'm gonna start. School's tough. Girls are easy by comparison. At least with them there's a chance of things getting better.

Not right now. [A grin creeps onto Larry's face.] Not yet. Won't be long now though. She's comin' around. [It's a relief to hear Freddy ask. More and more it's easy to loosen up even though he keeps reminding himself to be smart, be cautious.]

Unless she gets knocked up. [He adds as an offhand remark because in Freddy's opinion it's funny. No he doesn't hate women okay? Okay.] Oh yeah? So what number is she gonna be? Five? Ten?

[Guys brag about the amount of pussy they've had like it's second nature, right? Even the ones who like cock. At least that's Freddy's line of thinking. He'll be damned if Larry proves him wrong, especially at this age.]

So far so good. [Meaning that he's not guilty of getting a girl in trouble...that he knows of. Or something.] She's gonna be number seven.

[He doesn't brush his shoulder off but he does look pretty fucking proud of himself there.]

Black hair and big blue eyes, her name is Maureen. She got legs that go for forever.

[In case Freddy's having a hard time picturing it he makes a curve in the air that's meant to be her profile.]

How about you? You have a lady?

Seven? Shit man.

[He may as well leave the table, Larry's got him beat even though there was never any doubt in this kid's mind. When Freddy was that young he had one, maybe two, girlfriends. He wouldn't count the first one either because she was a damn shrew for her age. Er, anyway, Freddy's still seated at the table, just feeling mildly defeated. The women he bedded in college and after that though far exceeded seven...of course Larry likely surpassed him at that age too. Sigh. Wait is this teenager even telling him the truth?? Fff.]

I think I got the idea. [He laughs over those (large) paws making Maureen's silhouette. Larry must have a thing for women with the letter M.] Naw, I don't have a lady but I get by just fine without one.

[That probably doesn't come out the way he means for it to come out.]

Longest was a year and a half? Two years? Something like that.

[Casual, like it's nothing. Like his frequent moving locations and own personal problems didn't have anything to do with it.]

Anyway, wish I had a picture, I think one day she'll be like those pictures in your apartment. [The pin ups he spent some time looking at, sweating under the collar. Though he takes Freddy's answer in stride, the implications are there though.] ...so no ladies? [Honest question, one asked in a low voice, he even leans in because he wants to know.]

That's a long time for a kid. [A nod of approval.] You like those pictures huh?

[Freddy smirks at the irony in a younger Lawrence Dimick fawning over the art the older Lawrence Dimick put up. Er, say what? Green eyes go a little wider at the way Larry looks at him, asking him that question, giving him this knowing look. Shit man his cheeks are flushing a soft coral red.]

No, not right now. [The supercool tough guy has to avert his gaze.] It's kinda complicated.

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