orangetoughguy | phone post

Me.

[There's a hint of pride there, because Bucky can have anyone he wants but he chose Steve, Steve who is still pretty baffled to as why people as spectacular as Bucky and Peggy want to spend time with him in a romantic capacity sometimes]

Me? As in....

[Speak more explicitly, Steve Rogers.]

[Oh, god, now he really is blushing, because even talking about this with Bucky is hard, although Steve has heard worse back in the barracks]

I guess he's my sweetheart.

[Do people still use that term?]

[Oh God he said sweetheart. He really said sweetheart. Really really sorry, Captain America, but Freddy has to laugh. Don't hate him because deep down Freddy loves you.]

Sorry. Sorry.

[Just...give him a moment and stuff. Yep.]

[He doesn't hate him but he does flush with embarrassment. GOD FREDDY BE MORE SENSITIVE]

Guess people don't say that anymore?

[WHAT HE CAN'T HELP IT HE'S NOT EXACTLY A COUNSELOR.]

Old people, maybe. [Like not even his mom and dad, more like his grandparents. Ahem okay Freddy's calm again.] I'm kidding, man, you can call it whatever the hell you want. It's your thing, your and his...thing.

[Plate pushed aside now so he can pull out a cigarette.] How'd this happen anyway? I mean, you knew right? Him sayin' he's taken wasn't news to you was it?

[He nods]

Well, we had....

[Oh god he can't say it.]

It wasn't news but he had never said it before. It just seemed. I thought maybe he would still go on dates with girls and kiss them and be with them.

Had....

[Stuck on that part for a moment. See, Steve, if you're gonna wanna talk about it you have to actually talk about it.]

Sex.

[He says it very softly but loudly enough to be heard. God how to some men talk about this so easily? He's heard it often enough, god knows]

[This is where he has to be an adult around you, Steve, because he knows you and when you come from.]

What kind of sex.

What do you mean?

[SOB HE'S NEW TO THIS OKAY]

What kind of sex? Look I'm not trying to worry you or anything but to some guys the kind kind of matters, you know?

[A pause. Because it's Steve.] How'd you have it?

Blowjobs. And with our hands.

[His own hands, right now, are very still and very flat on the table because he is looking at them. He hopes that's what Freddy means]

That's what you mean, right?

[Puff puff on his cigarette. Puff puff. Puff.]

...Wow. Whose idea was it?

[IS THAT BAD?]

Well. I told him it was okay, so I guess it was mine.

I'm askin' because right now it kinda sounds like you're just along for the ride.

[Neither, says the cawp.]

[He kind of seems a little taken aback by that statement. His voice is very steady, and serious]

What do you mean?

[It's a genuine question: as if Steve would ask any other kind, when it comes to this]

It don't sound like you know what you want. Your guy, he makes all the moves, calls the shots, you go with it.

[Duh maybe that's why he's talking to you, Freddy.]

I've never been in a relationship like this before.

[He sounds so careful about it, not embarrassed]

I kissed him first.

When was the last time you had one period?

[Not said in an insulting way, just curious because...it's Steve.]

I don't know if Peggy counts. We never got a real chance.

If she doesn't, then none.

[Smooooooooooke...okay not tackling the virginity issue.]

I see. So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Wait.]

Do you think that's a problem? That I'm stumbling through it?

[Again: honest question]

What? No! I just...I'm surprised, that's all.

[Shruuuuug.]

Because... [You're Captain fucking America.] Shit man, not even with a girl?

[Steve shakes his head]

Girls weren't exactly lining up around the block to dance with a guy they could step on.

And then...it just didn't seem important.

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